You never see the hard days in a photo album...but those are the ones that get you from one happy snapshot to the next.

A very warm welcome to my thoughts and opinions. These lyrics from Megadeth's Peace Sells resonate with me. What do you mean, "I can't get to work on time"? I got nothing better to do And, what do you mean, "I don't pay my bills"? Why do you think I'm broke? Huh? What do you mean, "I hurt your feelings"? I didn't know you had any feelings. What do you mean, "I ain't kind"? I'm just not your kind.

me.

I have a penchant for sweet delights be it chocolate lava cakes or eye candy in my favorite tv show. I adore being a couch potato and my recent addiction is NCIS and The Big Bang Theory.

7:45 PM

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Ok so my former roomie, introduced this song to me (have to give credit where its due)

You said you don't know me
And you don't even care
Oh yeah you said you don't know me
And you don't wear my chains
Oh yeah

She said I think I'll go to Boston
Think I'll start a new life
I think I'll start it over
Where no one knows my name
I'll get out of California
I'm tired of the weather
Think I'll get a lover
And fly him out to Spain
I think I'll go to Boston
I Think that I'm just tired
I Think I need a new town
To leave this all behind
I Think I need a sunrise
I'm tired of a sunset
I hear it's nice in the summer
Some snow would be nice

- Boston by Augustana

Lovely song. Brought back many memories. Mostly of Boston.
Being alone there for a short time, made me realise alot of things I think I wouldn't have realised otherwise.

A lot of times, I know alot of us, myself included just want something else. A chance to start afresh. Far away. For the longest time all I wanted was to go somewhere far away from it all. Just so tired. Tired of the day to day routine. Tired of the same ol' things. Tired of the weather. Sometimes even tired of the people. Just physically and mentally tired. I have visions of lazing around in the Carribbean frolicking around absolutely carefree. But realistically, just how far can we run? At the end are we just running away from our own thoughts? Which no one can help us with, neither can distance really. But it helps elevate it at times.

Recently I sent my friend off ( feel terrible that I didn't get to spend much time with her, time just flashed past and just like that she's back in manchester) and I decided to wander around terminal 2. I just walked right till the end looking at it from a completely new angle. And when I reached the end I remembered in 2005 I was there checking in, full of anticipation and excitement as I went to US. With people whom I don't even talk to anymore. Its terribly sad, coz we shared some decent memories. Its funny, life just seemed to have whizzed past me. I almost wish I could grab the time back and cling on to my memories and live those memories again.

Sometimes its just hard to let go.
I just watched ep 8 of season 4's OC so yea, there was a whole part about dealing with death, grieving and letting go. Letting go is really hard isn't it? It could be people, or just all these ambitions/goals/hopes/dreams things you thought would be easy peasy or in theory its feasible when in reality you're really a far cry away from it all. Life sure does have its classic moments, almost like its laughing at you.

Anyway, I recently caught Blood Diamond. I got to tell you DiCaprio is turning out to be class A actor. I usually reserve that for say Jack Nicolson or Robert DeNiro. But I'm telling you this young thang has come a long way. The only shitty part is why the fuck is the ending the same as departed. Well a certain portion of it. fuck la. But damn good movie. Conflict diamonds. Who would've known?

Ok now I'm officially bored before I launch into my next hectic week. Ta.