You never see the hard days in a photo album...but those are the ones that get you from one happy snapshot to the next.

A very warm welcome to my thoughts and opinions. These lyrics from Megadeth's Peace Sells resonate with me. What do you mean, "I can't get to work on time"? I got nothing better to do And, what do you mean, "I don't pay my bills"? Why do you think I'm broke? Huh? What do you mean, "I hurt your feelings"? I didn't know you had any feelings. What do you mean, "I ain't kind"? I'm just not your kind.

me.

I have a penchant for sweet delights be it chocolate lava cakes or eye candy in my favorite tv show. I adore being a couch potato and my recent addiction is NCIS and The Big Bang Theory.

7:50 PM

Sunday, October 02, 2005

well its been a long hiatus.
i've been terribly busy
on top of that i've been getting bad news one after another.
so bear with me
if u can't dats fine too.

anyway its funny the lil things i remember.
my granny is ill in the hospital , finally took some time to visit her.
she's all small and frail now.
its hurts me.
keeps pulling out her drip asking what it is coz she keeps forgetting.
she's forgotten how to speak english, malay and tamil she only remembers our language, malayalam.
yes luckily i can understand and speak a bit coz u can't speak to her in any other language.

she's a strong woman, learnt eng, malay & tamil on her own here.
my grandfather died when my mom was only 3,
she took care of 6 kids ( 4 of them sons) all on her own.
is she not one of the most amazing women alive?
i say hats off & kudos in the highest possible manner.
i can't imagine being a single mother of 2 let alone 6 kids!!!
granny ur amazing!

she used to tell me stories of how the japanese soldiers came to her house and all kindsa stories of the past over and over again.
n now i miss that terribly tho i used to complain.

i wish she could recall me now more often.
i wish she won't suffer anymore.
i wish she won't be in pain.
i wish she'd stop pullin out her drip n bleed.
i wish she'd be the big strong woman i used to remember very fondly.
i wish....that i could live in the past rather than the future n present for now.