You never see the hard days in a photo album...but those are the ones that get you from one happy snapshot to the next.

A very warm welcome to my thoughts and opinions. These lyrics from Megadeth's Peace Sells resonate with me. What do you mean, "I can't get to work on time"? I got nothing better to do And, what do you mean, "I don't pay my bills"? Why do you think I'm broke? Huh? What do you mean, "I hurt your feelings"? I didn't know you had any feelings. What do you mean, "I ain't kind"? I'm just not your kind.

me.

I have a penchant for sweet delights be it chocolate lava cakes or eye candy in my favorite tv show. I adore being a couch potato and my recent addiction is NCIS and The Big Bang Theory.

10:17 PM

Friday, January 14, 2005

My mom was just telling me earlier dat even as a kid once i stuck my heels in i refused to budge. she used to bring me to her workplace n there was this staircase with chameleons and as a young kid abt 4-5 i guess. when all her colleagues were there i juz refused to budge. everyone went up the stairs n i juz stood at the bottom. man my mom lost her marbles yelling n walloping me coz i made her lose face. n i was tellin her why do u make me do things u know i dun wanna do? doesn't make sense does it.

i mean i know wat i want n i wat i do not want. u ain't gonna change it.

there was this other instance where i was again a young child in between 3-5 i guess. at this chinese restaurant with my parents and all their frens. n these nincompoops gave me a fork n spoon n everyone else got chopsticks. of course such things are juz inconceivable. i mean if u can do it why not me? so i spent the entire time learning how to use chopsticks much to amazement of everyone at the table. (apparently i kicked up a big fuss)

now i realize i'm exactly like that down the road as well. probably escalated alot. i mean i know wat i want n wat i don't is that such a bad thing? i won't budge unless u convince me with rationality. n i simply can't get ppl who dunno wat the want n dunt in life.

now this is the year i've been waiting for since 2003. the year i make it or break it. the year whether the decision i made will come to naught as everyone around me believes. so it is the year i'm not give a fuck abt ppl ard me. pardon me for being cold-hearted but this year its all abt me baby. all abt me. its tiring to walk on eggshells ard ppl who are very emo all the time. so the "i dun give a fuck" attitude will do fine. (which i hear angelina jolie has n apparently is very hot to guys, maybe i'll find someone wahhahaa)

dunno whether u guys read abt the brit lady who pulled out this guy's ball n put it in her mouth. fuckin freaky i tell ya. n mr brown's take on it is fuckin funny. n i gotta agree with his wife. HOW THE FUCK do u pluck out one ball?? do they not come as a package?? hahaha weirdos. u can check it out on todayonline if ya want. fri for the mr brown article n thurs for the original article on the first page.

anyway loadsa random thots whizzing in my head can't get to get 'em order. so i shall end here.