Happiness is a DOUBLE shot of Gin Lime

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Wow 3-4 mths just whizzed by without updating this blog. Bet almost no one reads it now which is kinda of a good thing I guess.

Past few months have been tough. One of the most difficult and emotional thing I've had to deal with was the passing of someone I knew. I may not have been really close to that person but it felt like the bricks just crumbled. Last year, I saw my grandmother pretty much pass away in front of me hooked up to all these machines in the hospital as she gasped for her breaths. It was terribly painful for me. During this period, I've come to realise who can really be there for you. People, you don't even have to say anything, just your presence means and says so much more than words possibly ever can. And some people let me down alot and I was devastated coz these are the people I never thought would do that to me. Some said callous things like "no longer sad right" or "ok right". Someone passed on, please, show a lil respect. For those who have been through that they would know it's not something you get over, it becomes part of your life to miss that person and to hold on those memories as hard as you can because it's all you have left. For those who haven't I hope no one you know says that to you coz there's this white light of fury that goes through you when you hear things like that.

The reason why I'm forcing myself to blog is coz I wanna remember that this year I got my b'dae wish. Every year I've always known exactly what I wanted for my birthday a new wallet, laptop, mp3 player etc.

This is the first year I wanted so very badly to have the company of those I enjoy hanging out with. Due to various reasons , I've lost so many people I adore hanging out with. It's something that struck me very hard when I was alone in the states briefly. To be truly alone is a real wake-up call. And I got my wish, got to hang out with my fren who came down from London, another who came down from Perth and my uni mates. I can't describe how happy it made me. I had a long lost friend send me a b'dae card (didn't even realise she remembered). Been a real blessing to have that.

I don't think people realise how much I value the times where I just sit down with people to have a chat. I need not even be close to that person but it makes a difference to me.

And I'm thanking everyone who spent time with me, to chit chat or otherwise. It means alot. Thanks.

posted @ 8:27 PM

Sunday, January 27, 2008

solid tempura king prawn & jumbo roll with yummy king prawn. at some jap restaurant which i don't remember the name @ leisure park kallang

salad @ prego's raffles the plaza (coz got discount coupon haha)

salmon / asparagus @ prego's raffles the plaza

can't recall whether i put this up. my cubicleeeeee

posted @ 6:59 PM

Monday, December 10, 2007

Australian team warming up before finals

Germany vs Australia Finals for Champions Trophy 2007

posted @ 8:26 PM

Korea vs Great Britain

Turf being splashed with water from jets

Netherlands vs Korea

My very first Hockey Champions Trophy, it was quite exciting to see the top countries playing against each other (and i'm so not a hockey fan). Unfortunately, I was sick the entire time and it kept getting worse, even with all the rest and self-medication. so BOOHOO.

posted @ 8:22 PM

Sunday, November 18, 2007

lovely cakes my colleague gave me. yummy.

a much appreciated lovely lunch at Harry's first time I been there. plus a refreshing a budweiser, something I haven't had in ages.

FABULOUS salad in vivocity. an AMAZING find. trust me its REALLY huge should have put something in comparison so you guys can see but one person CANNOT finish this salad.

btw BEE MOVIE rawks! as predicted.

And National Lampoon's Van Wilder: The Rise of Taj - IS FUCKIN HILARIOUUUUUUSSSSSSS. u havvvvvve to catch it!
My new fav is Kal Penn (from Harold & Kumar - another must see, btw there's a sequel, keep your eyes peeled!!)

posted @ 7:22 PM

Sunday, October 28, 2007

Took the thoughts right out of my mind:

Taurus (April 19 - May 19)
You have an urge to hop on a plane and leave the country, dear Taurus. It seems that is the only way to free yourself from the mountain of professional and social obligations that are piling up. How can you ever hope to attend all of them, or even half? Have you considered that you may not need to? Send someone else in your stead, perhaps, or simply respond that you cannot make it. You would not be the first to say "no." You are entitled to some down time.

The sad thing is everyone around me doesn't seem to think that I need any down time. And I find that very disturbing.

posted @ 9:29 PM

Monday, October 15, 2007

My absolute fav song at the moment seems to take the thoughts right out of my head.

Dixie Chicks: Not Ready to make Nice

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting

I’m through with doubt
There’s nothing left for me to figure out
I’ve paid a price
And I’ll keep paying

I know you said
Can’t you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it

I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should

Coz I am angry as hell. And I won't go back to the times, the hell they put me through.
I don't care how rude or awful ppl perceive me coz I remember for the 16 years of hell I was put through, everyday, every night was difficult, and somehow my family pulled through together. You don't really need to know what exactly I'm referring too but I got reminded recently at my grandmother's one month death anniversary mass. I'm doing my best to be strong but there's alot of hate within me I wish I never had. Alot of awful memories I try to forget. But without these trying times, I'll never be the person I am today.

But enough about burdensome thoughts whizzing in my head, I had a lovely french weekend. Amazing french food at the french stall followed by two fabulous french movies (part of the french film festival):

Changement d'adresse (Change of Address)
Hella funny movie with this ditzy blonde and oh so sweet french man.

Ensemble c'est tout (Hunting and Gathering)
My fav Audrey Tautou was in this lighthearted movie with no particular plot but it flowed so well and the director told the story brilliantly. I say kudos!

Till next time, Au Revoir!

posted @ 12:06 AM

Friday, October 12, 2007

Taurus (April 19 - May 19)
Your mind might be turning toward getting away from your normal grind, dear Taurus. You might find yourself kicking around the idea of a long vacation either with your special someone or with a close friend. The person in question would probably be interested, so don't be too shy to bring up the subject. Books on travel and faraway places might also prove fascinating, and it certainly wouldn't hurt to make a few inquiries.

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I'd say pretty right on target. I'm too drained. In turn I get too frustrated, my fuse is INCREDIBLY short nowadays, it's just insane. And in turn I just wanna take a really long break.

I feel shortchanged for alot of things like I'm always getting the shit end of the stick which is really not a good way to be feeling coz it bubbles, toils and troubles. Sigh.

I feel it bubbling over very badly. Bear with me guys. Bear with me.

posted @ 7:57 PM